Friday, January 14, 2011

Words..

Its only words and words are all I have...

More than words..

We have two songs here, classics they are - both trying to say something and how - WORDS. Its words which have been used to communicate something to you. So is it all words or more than that..I am touching this aspect of words..coz I do not anymore believe in words. And it would do us all a lot more good.. if we control our reliance on words.

N why do I think so? Coz most of the people I spent my time with moulded this thought in me..their actions were never married to their words. Infact, if we pay attention or we carefully listen to what everyone is saying, meaning and intending..we would realize we only believe what we have been conditioned to believe, what we would want to believe.

Why is the association with words?

Words have their importance of being THE Way to communicate and get through. Communication - one of the most important and most vital needs of human beings. It all starts from there. There is verbal communication and non verbal communication. Non verbal communication is body language, gestures and actions done when two people don't know the other's language. Verbal communication is the most widely used, no stats available and keeps happening everywhere. Lets come towards our point. I would like to break verbal communication into - sense, non sense and noise with particular regards to human - human verbal communication done at all the strategic places in your life by about anybody.

For me, I have grown up totally believing what anyone said and literally bind these people to their words. I could not come to terms with this fallacy for a long time. Afterall, why would people talk about things they never meant. Isn't it? BUt yea, people talk and they talk.. I would remind people what they had said- n why they don't mean it. Some gave me a Oh-what-could-I-do look and some actually shrugged and gav a sly smile as if mocking at me taking words so seriously. Though I could guess it, I could not just not take anyone non-seriously..words always were registered in the head with the people. Blaming people and cutting off from those who never meant to mean what they said was much less to lessen the pain of disassociating from wordly attachment. I had to long understand that its NOT THEIR FAULT EITHER.
All of us are not conditioned to staying quiet, live silently and only say as much as you intend to put into action or ask. I seriously had to imagine a world where people meant what they said and took it seriously till the end of their lives. It is freaking scary to imagine that. It will take away all the dramma out of our lives.
Here is when the Tao philosophy works- that for the useful to be of value, the useless is equally important.

My major reason for stress, - somebody's words and I could finally disassociate with them. And it took a lot to get here. Feels peaceful, awesome.. coz I am not expecting this from others..but I love it when I do it myself.. N I am still practising. Spells of silence in the day, being aware of the sounds around rejuvenates me. I love to sit alone and have my food, I could end up having my office chai alone at times, sitting in the parking lot. Its meditative and relaxing. I feel like I totally got my attention.

So many things said, unsaid...it was using my memory to store all of this information. That memory was the ground to judge and behave with those people.. I finally dumped it. I wish I had learnt this earlier..but then it must be the journey till here that made me realize words may not do good to me..I had to know what mattered most to me and what my feelings were saying..In all of my life..no matter how much I judged n prejudiced..I was equally struggling and never could be fair with My own words.

P.S: Thank you Sne for sparing me the horror. It's not good to play games..n still feel like a victim. :)