As the New Year has started.. I have decided I am gonna exceed all the madness i have done so far.. Be madder! There's no time to lose.
..Theres nothing like staying put n gettin used to the madness.. wher you once lost your cool, blamed around.. felt bad.. regained ur self after a loss of time.. This process you see shapes you up. Makes you tougher on the inside.. COz the noise and the madness of this world.. just pressurizes you and pushes you nowhere but on the INSIDE..that big vast world where just You reside. All it takes is perspective. Copyrighted line: Celebrate your tragedies.. Der was just no way better, that GOd could be shouting in your ears..to seek the Best for you! Hear it.
Nowadays, I love making mistakes, I love to laze around till the last bell.. wait to see how the person reacts rather than assume his reaction..love to feel love for those I fight brutally with... I love to stay! Love to be right there..
I can see today that that which we know as Good, nice ...Approved by everyone is So Fake Indeed. I love to see the wild side, I love to see ppl raw in their behaviour.. where they come open with what really makes them, breaks them.
It takes me a few seconds to gauge people.. intuition at its strongest! No longer a thought more to consider someone who did not appeal to my intelligence.
I no longer feel attracted to what appears bright n gorgeous..success to me has been redefined.. i love what lies in the darkness..its amazing ! I love the truth bare, naked..at its purest! Money is respected and important.
It feels awesome to experiment hugging my loved one when they have absolutely lost it on me, to appreciate someone I just bashed at with my hurting tongue.. It would not surprise me nor make me feel bad if I was slapped by someone.. I love to observe things.. see what happens, how it happens, feel it happening.. life is wonderful..
I have subsided, become calm...love to observe. Love silence.. not the one wher theres no noise...but wheres theres a mom yellin at me.. N i m too faraway.. N at this level, there r very few ppl who connect..so its become easier to choose peers.. Life is ordinary.. and so very beautiful..
Came to terms with things I took for granted... Its really majestic ! It all comes around... n I saw it.. I felt it.. Have been able to see where I was wrong with someone, How someone would have felt then, How much was the hurt I gave to someone coz I did not want them to see me being hurt by them...Its a life full of ironies..Just when you are making a mark in your mental encyclopedia of what might be the answer to a question in life, and all of a sudden.. the question changes, the answer gets a new question or the encyclopedia changes..
Best part, theres no definite answer..to anything.. no idea of the future, The debate on whats wrong n right will never end.. and cannot be justified as well.. Each is to his own.. We are all left in the wilder to experience, face, question and mark our own answers and time to time change the encyclopedia as well.. Sometimes it makes perfect sense, sometimes I look at things I blink my eyes, touch it and wonder whether I am for real..coz its just something I may never fathom..
There are no coincidences...I would want to direct a few things in life and the whole plan changes.. someone shows His power..that I may be a nobody. Its a scare and a relief.. coz the next thought is the power must be taking care of me as well. That maybe all the crazy stuff I do, my unpredictability, curiosity must be a direct manifestation of the power. That I won't be the one directing it. Feels awesome to let go, free fall...live my part to the best.. Get the best feel for myself and in the process leave a lot behind..
I m too beyond this world, the scares of this world, I m beyond the fathomable.. I am serene and unmoved.. And here is wher I have experienced the most rare and uncanny n worthy of being overlooked moments.. they have redefined me, n my connection with that power.